Dependent

Okay, I'll just go ahead and say it: I'm scared. I don't like to admit that I'm fearful, but it's true. You see, I stepped away from a good, well-paying, job at my church to launch a new non-profit organization. I believed (and still do believe) that the Lord was (and is) calling me to take this step.

The development of this new organization, called The Sending Project (TSP), is going well. Its purpose is to unite the Church to eliminate global poverty. (Something very close to God's heart.) It's just that the funding of it hasn't grown as quickly as I'd hoped. I won't be able to go full-time with TSP right now...not until 2011 at the earliest. So...now...while we (me, volunteers, including our great board of directors) continue to develop TSP, I need to earn some dough via another job (or a few part-time jobs?). The big deadline for me is March 31. My compensation and benefits from my old job run out at that time.

Ahhh...life on the edge...makes one feel...dependent. Yes, I'm scared...but I'm also excited about what God is doing and what He is going to do to bring glory to Himself in this process. That's the crazy thing...that God would love someone like me (and someone like you) so much that He actually works in and through my (and your) life! That's His way. And...in the next several weeks, as God does His thing...and we see what happens...I will post the update right here on this blog...because it will be something that only He could've done.

I've only had 2 different employers during the last 28 years! And now, I'm in this season of vocational transition (or at least job transition within the same vocation?). Leads to some anxiety. But I rest in this wonderful reality: the times I've been most aware of God's activity in and around me have been the times I've been most dependent on Him.

Amen and Amen.